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Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
11:40 am	because why? I don't know why i am posting here. Maybe you select group of people who know about this futile online journal can answer this question. So, i was just looking at what few entries i have in here, and i was reading the posts from last summer. i find it quite mind blowing that summer is only half way through. the most memorable parts of my summer didn't even happen until right about now, this time last year. i would love to post the blog address for the blog i have been keeping about me being in seattle for the summer (WHAT?! you didn't know i was in seattle?), but apparently there are some people from seattle who might get ahold of the address, and i don't feel like having them read. if you want the address drop me a line and ill send it too you. with all of my free time (because i slacked off for a little too long and didn't get a job) i started re-building my websites, one by one, like i had been planning to do MONTHS AND MONTHS ago. so the new website HUB address is dustindrankoski.com so, to catch everyone up on my summer thus far (there is so much to come!), a list is in order. ready? ok... GO! •im in seattle •ill be in ny on august 3rd •im unemployed •last nite i drank a lot of cheap champagne and went to a high school reunion roof party. i only knew 3 people, so we just made up some sordid past so people thought i was cool •rossi is good, sparks is better •they don't have colt 45 here. WHERE ARE THE BLACK PEOPLE AT? •i worked on rebuilding a house for a little while... it was fun. i got $10 an hour •my d100's batteries are dead, and i don't have the charger... thus, no digital pics •i like white t-shirts •i bought a road bike •i have a massive crush on a girl •the most important thing i have in my room is the box that my printer came in. it doubles (triples) (quadruples) into my desk, workstation, and nightstand. •i met someone named sterling... his parents couldn't commit to silver i guess •i kicked the crap out of toby by accident •laura has punched me in the face, elbowed me in the head, and nearly tried to poke my eyes out nearly everytime i have seen her •my living room didn't have couches for a month... •i got two noise complaints the first two nites i was in my apartment •i still haven't used the word 'hella' •they STILL WEAR FLANNEL HERE. AND THINK ITS COOL. and everyone has listened/still listens too, and loves, the blood brothers i doubt ill post again for another bajillion months (yes, thats a number, it comes right after 7 and just before 8.), and im not sure why i posted anyway! i guess i had a livejournal calling. MISS ALL OF YOU (who read this)! -d Current Mood: worried Current Music: Volcano - Damien Rice (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
12:57 am	A Post to hold you over Since i have this i might as well appease the masses and post once in a while. So, this is my ode to the semester. First, i would like to mention that i found my old online journal thing that i thought had been deleted from the server a longtime ago. its so strange reading something about so long ago and being so absolutely disconnected from the feelings at that time. its also strange to read about stories that include people i don't even talk to anymore. my favorite entry was the one about avery the nite his now gf refused to talk to him and he started crying. that made me laugh. a lot. more than it should have. so how was everyone's semester? mine was alright. not enough free shooting, more grounded in assignment work i guess, between studio and crit. reviews went well i guess. the studio review told me nothing useful, which is fine because i spent no time taking the pictures, printing it, or even putting it together. i have a particular distaste for that class actually. the my crit review went well. i actually liked the work i produced that was a change. of course, when i looked at it again in portfolio form, i decided i didn't like it anymore. and, god forbid, my teacher told me it was fine art. gasp. i know. he also told me he liked it, but i should do editorial because fine art is for people who like looking like they do fine art (his exact words which made me laugh, which was also funny because he said that right as Meg came in for her review and she was considering persuing fine art, oh timing). my tech final is tomorrow, and then printing and crit on monday. then my favorite semesterly meeting with frailey. oh good times. nothing like being trapped in a 5'x8' box with a man that holds your career in his hands. and my supposed easy ending semester just got uprooted by the realization that there is work to be done and im merely piling everything up into about 2 days worth of time. AWESOME. i hope everyone has a wonderful break, a merry christmas, or if you rock that candle lighting thing, a happy chanookah! happy new year! and call me if you are in NYC on the 31st! And a fond fair well to michelle, who is leaving (cause she's stupid) to go be educated in... well... i dont know, stupid things i guess, like emo bands. -d Current Music: hot chocolate - you sexy thing (ed note - what?) (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
5:13 pm	Its Getting Chilly Yesterday was so chill, and fun and awesome. It was like a massive trip around town. I was downtown, uptown, eastside, brklyn. It was also like photo overkill. In a good way. I mean, as a photo major (those of you who are will get this) we are constantly bombarded with photo STUFF. Technical, artistic, conceptual, obscure, straightforward. All this stuff, "need to know." Its all we do; but we don't really do things with a lot of it. We learn it, talk about it, and then leave it at the school. We may talk about printing a lot, or cameras, but when was the last time you just played with a camera for 8 hours? took pictures for 8 hours? scouted, planned, wandered, got lost, for a long time? maybe i just slack off and haven't while everyone else has; but between doing a small shoot on the fdr with qflashes, wandering brklyn at nite with a tripod and backpack full of gear, and then wandering uptown to find weird nite pictures, i feel like i had my first real experience with photoraphy, or maybe its just been so long it shocked me. either way it was awesome. ps - taking pictures with a hasselblad on the street is really tedious. stopping, setting up a tripod, then metering, then focusing, then re- metering. but a lot of fun to slow down that much -d Current Music: The Nein- Foriegn Friendster (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
3:44 pm	Party You all rock! Thanks for all coming you made it an awesome party. sorry to anyone who i kind of bailed on there at the end. really sorry. you know thats not how i usually operate. ps. VIDEO GAME PARTY NEXT TIME!!! -james bond -mario kart -diddy kong racing -mario tennis -etc -d Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: everything but sleep - denison witmer (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
1:53 am	Sucka Everyone is back in the city and im more overjoyed than ever im like... busy. haha i have things i need to... like... DO. i have people i not only have to see, but people i desperetaly missed! not that i didn't love you shannon and erin for keeping me waaaaaaay entertained all summer, you two are my personal heros, you just know how it is! i wish i wasn't so tired! YAY CLASSES! printing with devon and the crew tomorrow makes everything great. the concept makes the world a better place. how i missed printing. -d Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Gooding - This Way Child (Comment on this)
Monday, August 22nd, 2005
2:24 am	No Words ok, so with new information being uncovered, maybe the emo jokes weren't in best taste, SO instead of lyrics to a dashboard song, im posting lyrics to the Statistics "(a memory)" : -d Current Music: the statistics - (a memory) [an instrumental song] (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:36 am	No more drunk posting haha i think this is what i get for putting up drunk posts. i swear to god i never even read what i wrote for that last entry, drunk or sober. either, way, seeing as how i have discovered people coming out of the wood work just to comment on how "erin-esque" my entry was, it has banished to the far off kingdom of deleted entries. instead (to stick with the apparent theme of emotasticness, aka erinitis) i am going to post some dashboard lyrics. haha i think this will make a nice alternative. emo girls who get off on these lyrics and wish to have sex with me (i know, i know, unlikely, but you can't say i didn't try) give me a call! 914 282 2001 Pacific Sun, you should have warned us, it gets so cold here. And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire. And our flares go unnoticed. Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired. We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible. Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you. But all our fears fall on deaf ears. Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light. And blinding our hearts with their shining lies, while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live. Pacific sun, you should have warned us, these heights are dizzying, and the climb can kill you long before the fall. And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and covered just as soon as they are crossed. We are, we are, intriguing. We are, we are, desirable. Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you. But all our fears fall on deaf ears. Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light. And blinding our hearts with their shining lies, while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live. ps - this is just for fun i swear!!! haha these aren't about anyone or anything Current Music: !!!- me an guiliani down by the school yard (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
9:15 am	I was dead OK ok OK ok. So i haven't really been around in awhile; I KNOW I KNOW. Shannon claims that i died, because i didn't talk to her for an astonishingly unprecedented 5 days. I have talked to Erin TWICE in like a month in a half, and seen her ZERO times. Sean and i never got coffee. the roof party never happened (still could). i blame a lot of this on the work schedule which is really tiring. Most of the blame can be set on the fact that i had to go home nearly every week for the past month. I have spent more time somers than i did all last school year combined. its weird. the fact that i bought the first season of arrested development on dvd can't help much either. oh, and the heat. as soon as it gets hot im more likely to build a fort with the couch in the living room than even go outside to get food. that happened by the way, and i ate a whole box of cookies. i think i gained 400 ibs that nite. and the cookies were gross. so lets see, instead of trying to catch everyone up, because it would be futile, and more like an exercise in remembering the most random thing i did. i got drunk a bit. i saw old friends. i worked a stupidly large amount. i wondered the city a bit. i started to say goodbye to lots of people. i ditched a lot of people. i went to a great concert. and right now im working on my new portfolio, so that means endlessly scanning negatives that i haven't even printed. i have someting like 50 rolls that i need to print. its just irritating at this point. but ill have two new books hopefully. oh, i have my cousins wedding this saturday in central park, im going to sweat my ass off. i hope zan also throws that fucking party for anthony. i just want him to meet her room mates... haha that kid is awesome. tuesday will roll around and nicole is coming in to see aristocrats (NOT WITH SHANNON) and pass the vodka and vermouth on over to me (martini's anyone?). i am so excited for North Carolina next week. since italy, i haven't just stopped and done nothing. its going to be so awesome to do NOTHING. a whole shit load of it. to the point where it is a brilliant amount of something. now i just need anthony and amber to find a cute girl for me to hook up with, oh those two together scare me. um. i think thats it... i should have left work probably... byyeeeee! -d Current Music: mike doughty - ossining (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
2:47 pm	INTERnet Ok, i don't really have much time, this is just a good blanketed way to get in touch with a lot of people at once, SO i have like NOOO internet. they are building a pool at my house and just like, decided to dig up the cable box which is on the oppisite side of the property... but whatever the only time i have internet is at work... so shit man... and to my favorite NYC-ers; im sorry that i got stuck in Hellchester, but i had a long ass week and i could never get back into the city with all of my stuff. oh, and i have a wedding this weekend there so it seemed pointless to run back and forth! miss everyone talk to you (hopefully) soon i leave you with lyrics for a song ben folds sang last nite that i love; You took a trip and climbed a tree At Robert Sledge's party And there you stayed 'till morning came And you were not the same after that You gave your life to Jesus Christ And after all your friends went home You came down, you looked around And you were not the same after that (Ahhh ahhh) You were not the same after that (Ahhh ahhh) You were not the same after that You see 'em drop like flies from the bright sunny skies They come knocking at your door with this look in their eyes You've got one good trick and you're hanging on you're hanging on... To it You took the word and made it heard And eased the people's pain and for that You were idolised, immortalised And you were not the same after that Walking tall, you'd bought it all And you were not the same after that Till someone died on the waterslide And you were not the same after that You see 'em drop like flies from the bright sunny skies They come knocking at your door with this look in their eyes You've got one good trick and you're hanging on you're hanging on to it (ooh ooh ooh ooh) (YOU WERE NOT THE SAME!) You see 'em drop like flies from the bright sunny skies They come knocking at your door with this look in their eyes You've got one good trick and you're hanging on you're hanging on: You're hanging on You're hanging on -d Current Mood: sweatin' my ass off Current Music: Not that song: Lapdance - NERD (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
4:28 pm	Should I be excited? Haha is it bad that i was really happy to be paying my first bill? probably... i got a letter from leila today and it absolutely made my summer. not only was i not expecting it at all, it was a BIG ASS LETTER. i didn't even need to open it to be happy. remember those large pads of paper in middle school that teachers used to write on, that sat on the easels? ya she wrote my letter front and back on a piece of paper that size. i think it took me longer to read that than harry potter. so i just wrote her back and that was cool. now off to run errands. -d Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Mungo Jerry - In The Summer Time (on repeat) (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
5:21 pm	Working week So today marks the end of my first official month working in at cargo, well, 4 weeks, not a month. wait... can that be right? no maybe not, maybe its my fifth week. bah! who remembers these things!!! i always thought that i would hate work, even if i didn't something i loved, but alas! i was terribly misled by my own thoughts; i loooooove work (thats right kelly, count those fucking o's). i don't know, the people are so funny and they are so awesome. its weird working in a creative, graphic design, photo, and fashion dept all at the same time. for the sake of getting paid, i work for the photo deptartment but i really just do the bidding of who ever asks. by far the most fun is eating lunch with the two big - honcho editors, Ariel (guy), Bruce, and Donald. From what i have gathered they have been really good friends for a long time. Donald is a little insanea and brings his bleach blond haired kid to work who is like a adhd patient on aderol. that little fucker can run. But Ariel and Bruce are so incredibly homosexual that they just make fun each other for it. Ariel: I really like that new Purple Label collection Ralph Lauren sent us Bruce: You are so tasteless. Its hard to believe you like that line of crap, the Cavali line is by far the more sophisticated choice. Ariel: Please. You're such a homo. Bruce: You just don't get it because you aren't queer. Ariel: (a slight pause, and then with a confused look) Are you serious? Bruce: (casually) ya, you're not fucking queer, I AM QUEER. You're just a fucking faggot. Ariel: No point fighting you there. Oh, and my favorite from the other day: Bruce: Did you go to the new Urban Outfitters uptown? Ariel: I don't go to Urban Gayfitters; its like the Ikea of clothes shopping. Bruce: I adore Urban! Ariel: (begins to get up and mumbles) You are totally the catcher. And so on and so fourth. Now, people who are bitter about my working position (you know who you are) please skip reading the rest of this. So this week i pulled in a pretty good haul i would say. First, i got my 3 pay checks, plus 200$ in cash (minus a cable bill) so i have money again, which is, well, nice. Second, they were clearing out old photo prop closets so they gave me a roll of bright orange unused seamless (53") and 5 flourescent lights that are perfect for building that coffee table. Third, they decided they like me enough to start sneaking me clothing. its to bad they are a whole season ahead of normal people, because they just slipped me this Cristi Conaway cashmere hoodie that EASILY would cost the equivilant of two weeks of work... so yay, now ill be warm AND fashionable come fall. plus i got a 110$ loupe for photos (why it cost so much i have no idea) Non bitter people can start reading again. so ya, all is well im happy (surprise surprise) and i was so happy to see stupid erin after nearly something like 2 weeks, and im also really happy to be in the cool show at Apocalypse and see Shannon after her exile to jersey (she's going to have to shower first, i dont want to inhale any jersey) and now i have fulfilled my worst nitemare of Michelle knowing i have a livejournal fuck -d ps- im not fucking sad because im thirsty, im just to lazy to get water... OH! i found water in my room! so now im really not making a stupid face Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Badly Drawn Boy & Mike Doughty - rockity roll (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
2:58 am	The City I love so nicole came in today. it was honestly like the good ol' days! we had so much fun. first shake shack to catch up, then a little bit of me telling her about italy and watching tv. then 'howl's moving castle' (go see it, it was really beautiful. for a cartoon it makes you think about a lot. its fun to be totally lost in a ficticious world for two hours). then met shannon for sympathy. 3 lavender pink lemonades and an hour long game of scrabble later (it was SO CLOSE), we went to dumpling man. we then headed over to sahara for my first hooka bar experience. it was terribly fun, and got a little tobacco buzz. next stop was candy and then back to the apt. we watched a little adult swim and we all looked at the pictures from the last party of school and all the stuff from the school year. then i of course bitched out and went to sleep (HEY! i have work!) this day was amazing and screams to have a follow up nite. we need to go to mud. -d Current Mood: happy Current Music: MIke Doughty - Real Love/it's only life (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 1st, 2005
10:55 am	Packing So im packing, and this is my much needed vacation from an incredibly long past 2 days... god damn. while packing to move my shit into the city, for fucking good, i stumbled upon a few hang ups. 1) it kind of pisses me off to be packing shit up that i only finished UNPACKING 5 weeks ago to the day. so i have only been unpacked for 5 weeks and here i am, pulling all the same shit out again. 2) instead of just having to pack up all the shit in my room from high school, now i have a years worth of shit from college that i have to bring BACK. woudn't it make more sense to just LEAVE all the shit there? whatever... so much stuff 3) i don't feel like packing up little things, like those 23 rolls of film i need developed, or like my cameras, because they are, well every- where, because, well, i have so many, they just kind of, well, take over ugh... what a pain... i just can't wait to be moved in to enjoy the intense heat and not have to miss out on going to the bar with the guys (who thought i woudl ever be saying shit like that? "the guys") bah, and not being there for friends and such MUST... MOVE... INTO... CITY Current Mood: frazzled Current Music: Brandnew - jaws swimming theme (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 27th, 2005
9:17 pm	not sure what to write i don't know i feel like since i made this i should post in it some times... shannon, thanks for helping me paint and dealing with me getting organized enough to start for 2 and a half hours. also, that was an awesome friday nite back in the city, my first one since before italy. oh drunken adolescents. erin, i miss you! and now, i am really tired and kind of want to go to sleep. but i like this song and i feel like it half describes how i feel and half not. so much has changed/changing and its almost all for the better, but i don't im also really tired so i start to think to much... I wish I wasn't waiting. This place gets smaller everyday. We all have characters and we know the parts we play. We're actors and actresses, that's all. Please take me away. I just want to start over. There are things I'd like to change. I miss the innocence, when the doors all stood wide open. The sun's gone down on better days. If I let you know, nothing can last forever. I never thought everything would change. If I let it go, nothing can last forever. I never thought everything would change. Well, maybe I did. Just not today. I never thought that things would change. I miss the innocence "missing the innocence" - autopilot off gdnite -d Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: um, haha barenaked ladies (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
6:03 am	Wow If know one hears from me in the like, i don't know, next 2 or 3 weeks, don't be terribly shocked. and im not dead either. so, like, this is how much work me and every other normal person usually has: |<------------------->| thats a lot of work and miscellaneous things to do. now let me show you how much work i have to do just this week: |<---------------------------------------------------------------------->| correct you are, 3x as much crap. i can't even sit back and relax and enjoy the fact that im home. i want to talk to my friends from italia i am now going to compile a lovely list of things i have to do: 1) Number 1 priority: get 3 sets of apt keys made, so im not the only one who can get in 2) Tell Cargo I won't be in thursday morning cause of a dr.s appointment 3) Hang out with Ali tonite 4) buy paint for my room (im doing these really cool red diagonal stripes) 5) go to work every single day at Cargo (ya job, ya 12$ an hour) 6) talk to friends from italy (i miss kelly, sean, dave, mike, and everyone kristy!) 7) meet jerry for lunch friday at 1 and hopefully only take an hour 8) hang out with britt friday nite or be castrated by her 9) i told shannon i would build her an awesome table for her apt 10) possibly kill myself? 11) relax 12) go to ikea to buy furniture 13) bitch at the apple store people 14) deposit $600 check 15) paint at sva for deluca so i can print for free over the summer (oh i hope) 16) process my 15 rolls of film 17) sort 1200 digital pictures from Florence 18) save the world (again) 19) actually RESPOND to people when they call/im me 20) get pics ready for the show erin is doing (so excited, even if i have crappy work) 21) get new contacts, i can't see shit anymore, AND I WANT TO BE A PHOTOGRAPHER oi, that felt good to list out. yay. i miss everyone and i hope i stay in touch in the next coming weeks, but if i don't, you know im still thinking of you. and ill hang out with you as soon as the shit storm settles... unless im dead from lack of sleep and over anxiety. i like pressure, but not this much byeeeeee -d Current Mood: FRANTIC - J;kldsaj;fk Current Music: Postal Service - Angel Pumping Gas (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
5:57 am	Short im sorry... egh... there is no way to be sincere when you are so far away there is something about this distance that turns everything back home into this blurred image where nothing matters only the things that happen here seem to matter or have an impact; when infact the things that go on here are so miniscule that its hardly even worth mentioning. more than anything i want to go home. italy is beautiful, the people are incredible, but home calls, and with it comes the shouts of the shit i have to do only a few days left... and i really am sorry. -d Current Music: The Police - De do do, de da da (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
7:16 am	Tuckered Out I stayed up till 4am photoshopping files... im a little tired and i still didn't get anything i like boo i saw the thrid star wars last nite! (its amazing how many fucking americans there are in this FORIEGN country) it was at this awesome theatre with HUGE comfy seats and you can drink beer and wine and get all drunk in the movie. it was amazing. haha and mike got so drunk he actually passed out in the theatre. the equivalent of sleeping through a surround sound war. it was awesome. and then we gave mike his birthday present, a knock off louis vuitton cigerette holder with built in lighter. we then preceeded to eat calzones, pizzas, and smoke all of the cigerettes we put in the case. still no memory card found... i can't believe i lost it... im such a fuck-tard. need money... need to take good pictures... need to NEVER use a phone drunk -d Current Mood: groggy Current Music: Ben Kweller - How it should be (sha sha) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
8:28 am	A great find im so bored in class that i have posted at least 3 times on livejournal or maybe 4? i think this is the fifth time... in 4 hours... and i still lost my memory card. this is what i have found though: "27% of US male college students believe life is a meaningless existential hell" - greatfacts.com thats all i have to say... -d Current Mood: why the fuck is it a sad face? Current Music: statistics - (memory) (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 12th, 2005
1:28 pm	Venice I want to live in a city where people don't own cars, they own pimped out boats. even the ambulances were boats... i don't want to leave here i don't want to have to deal with home... i have an apartment... im happy... Current Mood: blank Current Music: whatever (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 10th, 2005
7:44 am	More Updates so i updated the webpage thingy again... more pics... i think im just updating it everyday now looking at the pics i put up the other day i realize how crappy those pictures are... whatever! im having fun... i can deal with myself and chastise myself for taking shitty pictures later ok whoa, i gotta go cause im freakin out on caffiene ; ) -d Current Mood: fidgity Current Music: ontheroofagain-eve6-ijustdontthinkillevergetoveryou-colinhay (1 Comment |Comment on this)